God is in control
What does love really look like? Is it possible to muster up my own faith? How do I know if suffering comes from God or the devil?
I feel like the time in Explore has given me more questions than answers so far. It has made me wonder about my own life and my decisions, and also about life in general. Even though I like reflecting, it makes me frustrated sometimes. I want to know right here and right now exactly what to do in different situations! But life is more exciting than that. Knowing all the answers seems nice and simple, but it would also be boring and we would not learn as much. Another thing that I have to remind myself of is that there are no answers without questions, so maybe having questions is a start?
Wanting to know everything right away reflects my desire of control. I am in control of my life, and I like it! At least that is what I used to think. However, experiences in Explore have shown me that this is not the case. There are certainly situations in life that I do not have control over. But perhaps my lack of control extends even beyond just situations to much of life…
This became clear to me during kayaking. Flipping upside down in the rapids certainly made it clear that I was not in control. Okay, I am not in control in the whitewater when I am in a kayak, but what about the rest of my life? Is there anything that can throw me off as easily as waves can flip my kayak? The answer is yes. I cannot decide what is going to happen tomorrow, actually I can not even decide what is going to happen in a second. I can make plans and I can assume but I cannot know for sure.
It is easier said than done, but the best thing to do is to have peace in the midst of uncertainty, because there is no point in worrying about things I cannot affect, especially when I know that God, who is the greatest power of the universe, is in control.
Louise came to Explore all the way from Sweden. Of course, because of her heritage, Louise loves winter activities. If all Swedes have the same optimistic and cheerful attitude that Louise has, Sweden is certainly a place worth travelling to.